When I was a kid of  8 years , I was dreaming for big things. I found myself blessed for getting born in such a country ,India. I found my India Great and
more Heart-Freindly Country. Why Heart-Friendly Country ... because I found friendly peoples across me every time.

Slowly, I grown up ...discovered many countries. Some of them are really developed Country like US or UK or major European Countries and some of them are developing like India. After seeing these Green-Blue light countries , I asked myself why my Country still called a developing country. I have heard that its economy is growing like China but still it is develpoing. Why is it not progressing at all ?...Who is responsible for that ?.......

I am reponsible ?..You are responsible ?....Government is responsible ?...People are  responsible ?....Who is responsible ??? Why we feel inferior infront of any any foreigner ?...Why we feel inferior and afraid while handling a foreign Client. Believe me , I have not made these feelings in sand . I got these feelings in the solid ground.

I have seen many things in different countries. Believe me I missed many things that I used to get in India mostly.I used to see the roads of this abroad country.  I find the raods as busy as in India. Lots of commercial vehicle also finding its way on the same road. All are same like India.  But I didnt find any Traffic Police taking money from any of the travellors , which I used to see almost daily in India. Is the only difference from India ?...I dont know. But If yes, then  
because of the this traffic polices , India is not progressing? ....I dont know ...I am confused.

When I see the rivers and Ocean of this abroad country , I find the water is as virgin as in India. Then  whats the difference from India . Yes ..of course we used to get the Indian ponds and river much polluted by industrial waste and Human waste but the question is Does it make the difference?...Do it stops us to growing ? I am confused here too.

When I was a kid , I was dreaming of going to abroad and  to get lost in the long broad raods over there. Why I did nt I get my dream fulfilled in my country India ?? Am I not loyal to my Country ? Am I not love my Counrty ?...Believe me I love my country very much just like you but i never got my dream fulfilled in India. The road which I used to walk since i was 4 years , never good enough to compete any abroad roads. So many times, the govt repaired it but .....u know. I am afraid of saying that.

I am really afraid of saying anything furhter. I dont know whether Indian Education System is responsible, where donation is an important factor , is reponsible for that ?...whether giving bribe is responsible for that ? but without giving bribe , is it really possible to live in India ?...whether the Indian Politics has lack somethings ? whether it is responsible ? Who is responsible?

If we think yes these are responsible for preventing India to be a developed Country then WHY we are not removing these from our system. Are we afraid that if we remove these from our system then we may not likely to run our livlihood ?or we are the part of these Sin ?...Do ask yourself whether what you are doing is affecting any of the people on the earth ? Whether your movements make others to slow down ?...If your answer is Yes , then I am sorry to say that you are the part of the Sin.

I felt that ...to be happy only is not the untimate happiness you can get.
Believe me You can get more . Make your near around people happy ...make your neighbour happy ..make your collegues to feel that you are with him/her  always and ultimately make everyone happy without thinking of getting anyhthing back ..I promise you will be more happier this time.

But I didnt get the answer yet...Will you readers tell me something  on this..Who is responsible for preventing Our Country to grow.
 

Its quite late night….still shreya is in her table.The room is dark.only the table lamp is on.shreya does not like to work under the table lamp,she always gets headache when she works under this lamp..it makes her tired soon.but no option….shreya is not only one member in her home.Other persons are also there.so she can not disturb them because of her writing.shreya works with a small magazine organization..she writes stories,poetries,sometimes articles and those are published in that magazine weekly.
From the evening she was trying to complete this writing..but in vain.From 6:30 in the evening till 2:45 she was constantly compressing her brain and body to finish her work,but everytime she became unmindful.Her mind was not working properly….
Anyway no one can blame her…how could she forget all these things?how could she leave behind all these days?yes…..its quite past.now its 15 years going on and shreya mostly forgot all these incidents.or may be the weight of life and the change of the sorroundings have made her to forget all these things.
So its ok..its good for her to forget all these past days.Today shreya is happy in her life.she has loving husband and two children.they also need her in every sphere of life.
‘Okay ..then forget it.’but that was not as easy as she thought.
‘ I will never let u forget me..I will scratch on your heart so deeply that you can never forget me….not even u want to blot me out.’ He always used to tell her.
The wall clock has strucked to 3.shreya’s eyes were suddenly open.she found the sound of rain drops outside,she stood and came near the window to check it…it was really raining.How could weather be changed so quickly?Few minutes ago the sky was fully clear and suddenly where has the cloud come from?Sometimes nature feels the human hearts or may be the cloud is like the human mind.Think shreya’s case..just today morning she was so happy and so busy with her daily errands and with her children,their school and education,their health,fooding, packing tiffin and also with her husband.and at the evening she is so mournful and she is continuously reminding the past.
A chill wind just has blown by touching her.Her full body felt the coldness of the wind except her eyes..because it was full of tears.
Shayak…..thats the name she used to call him.That time was pretty good and may be the most precious time in shreya’s life.she was just 19,entered in a new college…having so many friends she was a lively and spontaneous girl just like a normal grown up girl.and in that time shayak was just touched his 40,quite matured one,experienced,and off course a talented writer.I know you people are surprised that a young 19 years old girl with a 40 years old man…..?But trust me..it happened.how did they meet…how did they like each other…how did they fall in love..that is not necessary.But the main thing is that they met,liked by each other and they loved each other.You readers will be more surprised when I will tell you another secret about them…..that shayak was divorcee.His wife left her because of his care free nature and everytime shayak was busy with his writing and he could not give much time to his family…so oneday came that his wife mallika found it impossible to stay with him.There was not only one reason….mallika was from a rich sophisticated family but shayak’s family was everytime in small budget.So u know mallika found her suffocated in his room.Shayak did not like artificiality…he believed in man’s open heart and simplicity in which case mallika was just his opposite.Anyway atlast they broke their relationship and mallika left the house.Shayak never felt sorry about this,he was never angry with mallika that why she left him.He believed that every person has his right to live as his own likings.So…..no issue for this.By the way shreya knew it.
But living alone since 8 to 9 years when shayak became habituated in his life style…and when he had nothing to seek from his life and from his surroundings…in that period he found everything what he never expected even when he was young.He found shreya…a promising girl with vivid look in her beautiful eyes,a pretty aristocratic girl with touchy perception and a sensitive girl with understanding nature.No….it was not infatuation.It was love,a selfless love beyond worth and understanding.
At first stage they both were confused…whats going on?but when they found themselves in love with each other they both were also astonished.
‘I don’t want anything from u.I just want that till my death u be with me’shayak told shreya.
‘No…don’t say like this.I want you in my whole life.I cant live without you.How could you say this that u will leave me alone in this selfish world?
I want to marry you and I want to stay with you.If we get married then nobody will tell anything wrong about us’once shreya told him.
‘U will never do this thing and don’t be foolish to talk like this and to think like this.I hv completed my life in this earth and now its my time to get rid of everything…but u hv just entered in your life.There is a long way u hv to cross,u cant step with me…u cant cross this long 20 years difference just by a second.’shayak warned her.
May be in every case shayak was right.shreya always felt bad because of such conversation.she sometimes weeps lonely in her room…thinking why shayak was like this…she loves him so much,wants him so badly but he always makes a distance and never allows her to take any further step.
Anyway 3 years goes like this.shreya completed her graduation.and now its time for her to ring the wedding bell.Her parents selected a nice rich suitable guy for her.He is Rajat…a bright software engineer with a reserve look.He has his own multi-national company and offcourse a successful business man in his quite young age.His parents are proud of their son.Oneday they all came to meet shreya and her family.They liked her and Rajat was hypnotized by shreya’s look.He thought that shreya was the most beautiful and glamourous girl he had ever seen.The both party became agree about this relation.
‘What should I do now?u still suggest me to keep quite?’shreya asked sayak.
He came close to her,hold her and for the first time he kissed her.He embraced her for a few minitues and told her, ‘Do what ur parents told you’.
Shreya was so shocked by hearing this that she could not get even a single word to protest against this.
‘Don’t you love me?’she asked him for the last time.
‘I love u more than anything…I don’t know how much it is but in my life I hv loved u so sacredly and so selflessly.This love will never die.’he replied.
‘Will we meet again or this is our last meeting?’she wanted to know.
‘No…this is not the last time…we will meet again just for one time…when I will be in my departing bed…when just a very few counted breath I hv to take..on that particular moment I want to meet with u,because I want to take my last breath in front of u.’he told her.
‘U are so heartless’shreya managed to say this…because she could not control herself…already tears started to flow from her eyes.
After this how time has passed these years…nobody did notice.Shreya got married to Rajat.First time it was compromise from shreya’s side but Rajat loves her like anything.After that they shifted to New Delhi and when Arin(shreya’s first son) was born life has totally changed for her.Everytime she was busy with her kid and Arin was also so naughty.However Rajat was also very caring nature,he helped shreya in each and every daily chores.After 2 years from Arin’s birth a girl was born to shreya and Rajat.she is Kitty…a very cute child with shreya’s look.shreya almost forgot everything about her past life and after her marriage she never came to her place where she left Shayak.Her parents used to come and meet with her. They were also happy seeing their daughter glad.
So everything is fine.Its just 2 and half years that shreya started to write in that magazine regularly.Before that she sometimes sent her articles.Now she has become a permanent writer in that magazine.
Shreya already forgot everything,she now never feels sorry for that,she thinks what has happened its for the good and she never recollected it in future if she did not receive that letter on that evening.It was posted on 23rd May and she received it on 5th July.The letter was addressed to shreya and the hand writing on that address column was very familier to her.It was the letter from Shayak:
Dear Shreya
I will not ask u how do u do or how is everything,I just want to inform you that it’s the time for me.I am ready to leave this world.I don’t hv enough time to write more…just come and say me goodbye.I feel pain in breathing but still it runs…may be waiting for u…to see u for the last time.but don’t worry for the next time(if u believe in Rebirth) I will be yours.Just wait for me,I will definitely come to u.
Shayak
Shreya’s hand was trembling,but she knows that she has to keep strength for this.Shayak did never want from her anything,so this time she never let him go without seeing her.
From the next morning she first managed her family and then call the hospital no that was written on the letter corner.
‘Hello…is this Sukriti Hospital?’
‘Yes’
‘Actually I want some information about one of ur patient.’
‘Okay…tell me his name.’
‘Shayak Sengupta’
(After some time……)
‘No maam….the name is not here.may be he has been released or something….’
Shreya was confused…what she will tell her..
‘Could u please tell me when he was admitted?’
‘On 21st May’
‘Can you tell me the doc’s name who has treated him?’
‘Yes maam….he was under the supervision of Dr.Mehra’
‘Can I get Dr. Mehra’s direct line?its very urgent.’
‘Just a min….’
After that the phone rang on Dr.Mehra’s table…..
‘Hello…..’
‘Hello Dr.Mehra…I m shreya from Delhi’’
‘What can I do for you?’
‘You treated Mr.Shayak Sengupta and I m his well wisher and u can tell that I m his great fan…..u know he is a great writer……actually I heard that he was admitted in this hospital for severe chest pain….so now how is he?’
The doctor paused for some time
‘Yes I also admire his writing….but the case was before 3 week….so where were you these days?dont u know anything?’
Shreya was trembling for a second…she held the receiver more strongly…
‘No …Doctor…I don’t know anything’
‘Actually he was admitted for some chest pain…u are right but he also had a block in his heart,he was very much careless about that…he never took his medication in time…anyway when he came to me it was his last stage and I m sorry to say that I could not do anything because it was already damaged.after 3 days of extreme pain he took his last breath in this hospital.
Hello…….hello…..are you there madam?’
‘Yes’shreya does not know how she managed to talk further.she got that she was late.the letter was written on 23rd May and she got it on 5th July.Oh God…what a long time the postal service took to drop that letter…but they don’t know they just spoilt the last chance to meet with her love.and because of them she could not keep her words.
‘I just want to ask u ….are u Shreya Roychoudhry?’
‘Yes’
‘Actually Mr. Sengupta has given something to give you.its in the hospital safe box.because there was no relative of him to take care and he was all alone.its really very pathetic that he took his last breath in a lonely room.anyway so…what would u like….would I sent u that box by courier or u will come here to take it?he requested me to take care of that box and I think atleast I can do this much thing for this great man.if u wish u came and meet me…I will give u that box.’
Now nothing more to say….but still I want to say you what is in that box.after some day shreya went there and met with that doctor.he also gave that box to her.she came back home and opened the box.it included one letter.some paper and one gold chain.it was written in that letter:
Shreya
I m not angry with you.i understand because of some mis communication or may be because of some serious problem you could not come.Otherwise you would definitely come to meet me.i don’t have anything u know…only a small amount of money I saved in the bank that u just give to some children development farm and this gold chain u keep it with you.This is my mother’s chain.I don’t have anyone to give this…as u know I don’t have any family.In the next birth when I will search for u then show me that chain…I will recognize you. With love
Shayak

A friend is………………
A tissue when you can’t stop crying
A shoulder when you feel like dying
Always listens when you have something to say
A week when you just need a day
A crutch when you have a broken heart
Some glue when everything falls apart
A sun when the rain just won’t stop
Your mom when you run into a cop
Phone call when you can’t leave your home
Hand when you feel all alone
Wing if you want to fly
Understands without knowing why
An ear for a secret to tell
An aspirin when you feel unwell
A love that can never let go.

A time to be born,and a time to die;
A time to plant,and a time to pick up that which is planted;
A time to kill,and a time to heal;
A time to break down,and a time to build up;
A time to weep,and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn,and a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones,and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace,and a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to get,and a time to lose;
A time to keep,and a time to cast away;
A time to rend,and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence,and a time to speak;
A time to love,and a time to hate;
A time to war,and a time of peace.